Thursday, June 25, 2009

Sebelum sem bmula.. uhuk

Sejak cuti sem ni, boleh dikatakan tiap minggu aku balik kampung. Latest bila hantar adik bongsu aku yg akan mulakan hidup baru kat kampung macam aku dulu. hehe. Daftar adah hari isnin & aku ikut skali mak aku. Masa tunggu dalam kereta, mcm2 memori lama waktu aku sekolah kat SMK Sultan Tajul Arifin Manong. Hehe.. lagi2 bila dlm keta lagu Patti Austin - All behind us now, Bobby Caldwell - Heart of mine & Element - Rahasia Hati dimainkan, tersenyum aku bila kenangkan kenangan lama.



Kat kampung memang penat... wpun aku bawak laptop, to x de masa nak guna. Kalau x kuar shopping beli barang mastura yg nak masuk UKM kat Kuala Kangsar, kitaorang bersembang dgn tok, pah, maksu, pakcu @ main dgn anak2 maksu & pakcu (Hafi & Izhar comel & baik yg amat!!!!)



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Kebetulan masa kami balik tu musim 'doyan', apa lg? aku pun menunjukkan bakat aku mengupas durian.. hehe walaupun aku bukannya peminat doyan. Aku cuma makan keropok & ice cream doyan je yek.. tempoyak @ sambalnya aku hanya akan makan ikut selera, masa & mood aku. hehe





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Saturday, June 20, 2009

20 - 21 jun 09

Smlm, 20 jun 09 makyang & family dtg rumah kami saja suka2 makan kek, konon nak sambut besday aliya & father's day. Atas permintaan makyang, kami ke secret recipe utk beli oreo cheese cake (yummy!!). alang2 kuar tu, beli hadiah utk aliya (last mint pny hadiah.. hehe). Oh ya, besday aliya bkn 20 jun, tp 21 jun..

Knp nak sambut kt rumah ktorg? hurm.... :-
1) Family makyang rapat dgn kitaorang
2) Saja nak jumpa adik bongsu aku adah be4 dia pindah ke kampung hr ni (21 jun 09).
3) Sbb adik aku Mastura dpt masuk UKM. (Makyang & Ayahlang terkena panahan cinta kat UKM.. hehe. dorang dulu budak UKM & cite dorang dulu mmg best!! adakah adik aku pun akan ikut jejak langkah mereka? hohoho)

Myg smpai dlm pkul 8 mlm. Ms mula2 dorang smpai, aliya tgh bad mood sbb dia ngantuk. tp pas bg dia hadiah & mkn kek, trus dia happy. x puas main dgn aliya!! huhu. Dlm pukul 10.30 mlm, bapak baru balik dr main bowling dgn uncles & pukul 11 makyang balik rumah.

Pas dorang balik, kami bg bpk hadiah father's day. Buku 'Learn to Play Keyboards'. Bapak kitaorang skang ni suka main keyboard. Sbnrnya last week kitaorang g MPH One Utama, & bapak aku tnampak buku tu & dia kata buku tu best. Tp kitaorang tau sgt perangai bapak yg x kan beli bnda yg dia rasa x penting walaupun dia nak bnda tu. (ntah2 tu hint bapak bg kt ktorg suruh beli utk father's day??) Jd, few days later sebelum aku balik ke rumah sewa jap, kami (aku & Mastura) g OU utk beli buku tu kat MPH.


Argh.. malas nak type dh! nk tido. besok aku kn bawak keta balik kg. Pape hal utk Bapak, Happy Father's Day! Sayang bapak! Utk Mastura, tgk la kalau kyong nak tulis pasal ukm utk awk. ZZZzzZZZzz

Mask? Mask Rider? Kamen Rider? Kame hame ha? hoho

Many people tend to not show their true feelings and emotions when in the presence of other people. This may be due to several reasons: They refuse to express their feelings and would rather keep things to themselves because they are afraid that their friends might tease them. They don’t want other people peeking into their business, interfering with their lives, and saying things that might offend them. They have low self-esteem and tend to be very sensitive towards what others think about them or their personality and character that has developed over the years might have made them become the way they are now.

We tend to believe that we know our friends very well, but to what extent do we actually know them? Are we close enough to know every single detail about them? More often than not, we don’t know everything about our friends. Some may choose to hide their feelings away from their peers because they don’t want them to be involved; they don’t want to show others their “weak” points, they want others to see them as “strong” and “able to deal with problems.” Or perhaps it is because they prefer dealing with their own problems themselves, they don’t want help from others and are rather independent.

However, is hiding your true self a good thing? You hide your feelings, your emotions, your thoughts behind a mask that covers you so that other people around you see the mask instead of the “real” you. Don’t you feel tired having to put on this “mask” every single day? I know I do. At times I have really wanted to throw this “mask” away and show everyone the “real” me. But, I didn’t. I was conscious of what people might think of me. “What’s with her sudden change?”, “She’s probably trying to get attention,” “Have you noticed who-and-who have changed a lot? I don’t know why she did that.” But of course, all of these are just my speculations. I have yet to encounter the real thing and I’m already afraid to make a step forward.

Am I lacking in self-confidence? Am I afraid of changes? Am I just conscious of what bad things other people might say about me? Perhaps these are the reasons why I refused to be who I truly am. How did all these feelings and thoughts come about? Is there a reason why I’m behaving and thinking this way? Maybe yes, or maybe no. Whatever the reasons might be, it’s always good to sit down and reflect on yourself once in a while. You may ask, why bother with this so much? Why not spend the time on something else more productive?
Maybe I just want to know more about myself first before knowing more about the people around me. There’s no harm in that just as long you think it does you good one way or another. As they say, before you can help other people with their problems, you need to help yourself with your own first.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Hati Singa

Siapa yg rapat dgn aku tau yg aku ni gilakan lagu, drama & apa2 bnda dr Korea & Jepun. Mcmne aku addictd dgn bnda2 ni? hm.. bdasarkan memori aku, lagu jepun petama yg aku dw kt internet, SMAP, & lagunya Lion Heart.. Memang aku gilakan dorang time tu, SEBAB : takuya kimura is 1 of the members. hehe. Masa form 4 @ form 5 aku dh sukakan lagu ni.

Aku yg skarang ni bagaikan habis madu sepah dibuang? erk.. or bagai kacang lupakan kulit? hurm.. wuteva. Buat masa ni, aku x layan jepun, tp ntah camne tergerak hati aku nk cari lagu Lion heart ni kat youtube dgn translation dia skali. & aku tjumpa 1 video ni yg DBSK nyanyi!!

& Pergh... aku jatuh cinta balik dgn lagu ni. Mendalam sungguh lirik dia. Alangkah bahgianya aku kalau that special sum1 bg aku lagu ni...


Aku mencari seseorang yg taste musik sama mcm aku. Aku x dpt bayangkan kalau aku dh kawin nnt, aku x dpt dgr lagu jepun, korea & nasyid (adala 3@4 lagu dlm mp3 player tu) dlm keta. tidak!!!